I am not fit to be the Stubborn Male Lead’s First Love – Chapter 58 part 4

Translated by: Tinker

Chapter 58 – Salvation (4)

Grandfather Lu had experienced all the great storms in his life, but this time, he almost burst into tears.

“Grandpa, I’m fine.” Lu Zhen handed the old man a tissue.

Grandfather Lu didn’t dare to blame him at all. He knew Bodhisattva had blessed his grandson when he discovered he (LZ) was fully recovered. 

He had decided to set aside a large sum of money to invest in the construction of the temple in return for god’s kindness to their Lu family.

“Since you’re fine, don’t stay in the hospital anymore. Grandfather has made arrangements for you to go home.”

Lu Zhen smiled. “No hurry, just wait.”

He still had important things to do.

VIP ward late at night.

The corridor was quiet and empty.

Early in the morning, the door was quietly pushed open, and a slender figure wearing a large hood walked in.

Lu Zhen sat leaning on the bed, with a book on his lap.

His black hair was clean and soft, his cheeks were cold and white, and under his eye was the brown and read tear mole. He restrained himself coldly, like a quiet gentleman. 

Lu Zhen turned sideways slightly to watch her approaching figure and then threw the book aside.

Chu Yin pulled a chair over, sat down, took off her hood, and looked at him with her arms folded.

Lu Zhen lowered his eyes gently.

The two people’s eyes crossed, like a silent confrontation.

After a lifetime of temptation and speculation, she finally understood…they were the same.

“Chu Yin.” Lu Zhen softly called her.

After being together in two lifetimes…

Chu Yin gently squeezed the corner of her clothes.

“First of all,” she said, “I saved you because we haven’t settled anything yet. Don’t think too much.”

Lu Zhen didn’t blink as his eyes fell on her face: “Which aspect?”

After a pause, he added, “I think we have to settle a lot more than that.”

Chu Yin: “…You are shameless.”

Lu Zhen laughed: “No more.” 

The most important thing in this life was the person in front of him.

Only you.

Chu Yin turned her face aside.

The ward was very quiet. Only the slight noise from the medical equipment could be heard.

After a long time, Chu Yin turned back to look at him, suddenly feeling a little agitated.

She endured it for too long.

“So you kept me by your side because Lu Linyuan wanted to take me? But you didn’t tell me? You’re still getting worse and worse, like a psychopath. Doubting this, doubting that, I really want to kill you, Lu Zhen.”

Lu Zhen was still smiling, but his eyes gradually became scarlet.

The person he loves accused him of all his grievances in front of him, and these grievances were all caused by him.

There was nothing more condemning than this.

“Do you know that you are really hateful? After so many things happened, do you consider yourself very strong? Or do you think I don’t deserve to know? Just making me stay by your side? Lu Zhen, damn…”

There were no wounds in his body, but Lu Zhen felt the pain of being ripped apart.

He wanted to say it, but he couldn’t…

“I can’t say it.” Lu Zhen was suddenly startled.

As soon as his words fell, Chu Yin got angrier and suddenly stood up with trembling fingers.

“Can’t say it? You find it difficult to speak? Are you dirtier than Lu Linyuan? Why don’t you say it? Do you think it’s an acceptable reason? Will I believe it after I’ve been wronged for so long? Lu Zhen, are you kidding me? “

At the end of her words, she started crying.

She always cared.

That night when she saw Lu Zhe, she was…so happy. Even secretly regretting that they hadn’t made up yet. 

During university days, Lu Zhen would always visit her before suddenly disappearing for a while. 

When he appeared that specific day, she wanted to scold him but instead invited him to eat shaved ice.

If he died, who would pay her back for all the grievances she suffered?

Lu Zhen’s eyes were bloodshot red as he said with a hoarse voice, “Because the rules of the world… I can’t explain.”

But now, he could say it.

Lu Zhen clearly realized something, and his hands that were clutching the quilt began to tremble.

“My consciousness and my ‘character design’ keep on merging. When I can’t control it, I will lose control. And I…cannot explain, because this is the rule.”

The world is a book, Lu Zhen’s character design was… The paranoid male lead loves the white moonlight at first sight. When he blackened, he imprisoned this white moonlight. 


According to the plot, he and the white moonlight were doomed to have a tragic ending.

But his self-consciousness awakened, and when he tried to resist the possessiveness, jealousy, and the desire to control, his character design exponentially increased. 

He couldn’t suppress the despair in his body.

Chu Yin rubbed her eyes, with a little nasal voice: “Then why can you explain now?”

…Yes, why?

Lu Zhen suddenly laughed, his eyes slightly curved, a drop of tears gently slid down from the corner of his eye.

Because the prohibition disappeared…

Lu Zhen understood the reason almost instantly. He smiled so much that he wanted to cry.

He wanted to break away from the rules of the world by dying.

But the “god” who escaped from the rules personally wrote him a story and gave him a new life.

—So from then on, she became his rule.

Chu Yin took him out from the circle.

Lu Zhen suddenly took Chu Yin’s hand and gently pulled it. She fell on him unexpectedly.

“What are you doing?!”

Lu Zhen’s hand trembled. Holding her small face, he gently and religiously kissed her on the forehead.

The sufferings of his life were redeemed by her own hands.

From now on, you are my world.

“I won’t lose control anymore,” Lu Zhen hugged the person in his arms and kissed her on the cheek lightly, “I just like you so much that I’m crazy.”



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